To all my friends who prayed for my situation, even though you didn't even really know what the situation was to pray for... Prayer can be so powerful and work miracles!
I've been through a lot in my life, starting at a very early age. Most of it I put myself through, and had I chosen a better path, life would have been much easier. But the things I went through made me who I am today, and for that I wouldn't change a thing. Okay, I lie, I might change a few things, but you know what I mean.
I've always been fearless, strong and bold in my existence, from the day I was born. I've rolled with a lot of punches and "adjustment" felt like my middle name for many years. But on a rare occasion, a situation will come about that is completely out of my control and that sort of thing always makes me come to a screeching halt in whatever my current path is and causes me to question all that I am and all that my life is. It's uncomfortable and I hate it; dealing with tough emotions that I don't want to feel or deal with. It's human nature, I think, that when things become just a bit too uncomfortable, we want to run as fast and as far as we can. And I almost did.
2 days ago I almost packed a bag and left everything I know, because something that I was told, in 2 split seconds, completely altered my marriage and my life. But I didn't pack that bag, and I didn't run, instead I got down on my knees and prayed that God would give me understanding and forgiveness, and the knowledge to know how to handle what was going on.
And He did...
After asking for your prayers here, yesterday morning I woke up with a renewed sense of being and faith. I felt ready to take everything on and knew that no matter what the outcome was, I will fall back on my fearless ways and do what it takes to get through it all. Does it mean that I'm not hurting or upset? No, but I will deal with it and be the better for it, and that's about all that I can ask for at this time.
So thank you for everything, my friends, for your prayers and support, they mean the world to me!