Tuesday, December 30, 2008

more of what's to come

When I said that I don't make new year's resolutions, well maybe I never said it here but I do say it, I think that I will change that to say that I will make one single solitary resolution for the year to come.
I will live in the moment...
Paying attention to the little things and being okay exactly where I am at any given moment. Not being so quick to move on to the next thing or situation before I've had a chance to enjoy the here and now. And taking it all in, so as to create memories that I might have missed otherwise.
Don't get me wrong, I'm fairly well versed at the practice of living in the moment already. I realized a long time ago that life is too short and sweet to let it go by without paying attention to the details, but this year I will do better. Much better.
When I read a book my eyes always skip to the last paragraph of each page, for some strange reason, and then I have to force them back up to the beginning of the page so that I can read what's in between. Surely it has something to do with being anxious and always feeling the need to keep moving... This year I will make more of an effort to read the "in-betweens" of my life.
This year, I will have a quiet, but well-intentioned, chat with my mind and let it know that this is the end of it's constant multi-tasking and anxiety riddled existance. Time to slow down and breathe...
And I will have a similar chat with my heart and soul, telling them that it's okay to simply be. To be open to whatever comes my way, as opposed to the way they think things should be. I have missed out on too many chances to love and be loved in life because my heart and soul had other plans.
I will begin to create a home in this house we've lived in for almost 4 years. To let go of the stress that stems from unfinished projects and all that "needs" to be done. Those things don't make a house a home ~ love, patience, and understanding do. Those projects will always be there waiting, just the same as my family. I choose my family.
This year I choose to listen to that quiet little voice telling me to slow down and pay attention.
To live in the moment.

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Katie @ makingthishome.com said...

Wow--that is so well put. I've been thinking about making the same resolution the last few days, and I really like the thought of having conversations with our hearts and souls. It's so easy to start multitasking and overwhelming ourselves--my husband is always telling me to quit trying to do five other things when I'm watching a movie.
Thanks for adding Making This Home to your blogroll, too. I haven't been to some of the blogs you listed, and I want to check them out!
Katie

clan of the cave hair said...

beautiful. There is a woman who does guided relaxations that you can dowload to any mp3 player on BlogTalk Radio. Her name is Beth Irvine. Last year I relied on those exercises to get me through days of immense stress and anxiety. Look her up, the relaxation tasks worked wonders for me and I'll bet you'd enjoy them immensely.-Lisa

Growin' with it! said...

hmm, now how many of these can i nod my head at...yep, all of 'em. it is interesting how looking back at the year i too get refocused and purpose to slow down and make more of the year ahead.

Maggie May said...

this is really thoughtful and unique to your life, some good reminders in there :)

Gail said...

Winning non resolution!

binks said...

Amen!

whitey said...

Great thoughts Tiff, our family has had some unexpected stress this Christmas and am really concerned at how it is going to turn out, right now it is not looking good. Glad you are making the changes in your life for smooth sailing!

 
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