When I said that I don't make new year's resolutions, well maybe I never said it here but I do say it, I think that I will change that to say that I will make one single solitary resolution for the year to come.
I will live in the moment...
Paying attention to the little things and being okay exactly where I am at any given moment. Not being so quick to move on to the next thing or situation before I've had a chance to enjoy the here and now. And taking it all in, so as to create memories that I might have missed otherwise.
Don't get me wrong, I'm fairly well versed at the practice of living in the moment already. I realized a long time ago that life is too short and sweet to let it go by without paying attention to the details, but this year I will do better. Much better.
When I read a book my eyes always skip to the last paragraph of each page, for some strange reason, and then I have to force them back up to the beginning of the page so that I can read what's in between. Surely it has something to do with being anxious and always feeling the need to keep moving... This year I will make more of an effort to read the "in-betweens" of my life.
This year, I will have a quiet, but well-intentioned, chat with my mind and let it know that this is the end of it's constant multi-tasking and anxiety riddled existance. Time to slow down and breathe...
And I will have a similar chat with my heart and soul, telling them that it's okay to simply be. To be open to whatever comes my way, as opposed to the way they think things should be. I have missed out on too many chances to love and be loved in life because my heart and soul had other plans.
I will begin to create a home in this house we've lived in for almost 4 years. To let go of the stress that stems from unfinished projects and all that "needs" to be done. Those things don't make a house a home ~ love, patience, and understanding do. Those projects will always be there waiting, just the same as my family. I choose my family.
This year I choose to listen to that quiet little voice telling me to slow down and pay attention.
To live in the moment.