focus

I’ve noticed lately that I’ve been feeling increasingly out of sorts, and when I feel out of sorts I start to get anxious and irritable. Does this happen to anyone else?
My house is a mess, my eating and weight are out of control, things feel unorganized and chaotic.
When things get this way I know exactly what it is that I’m not doing and that would be focusing.
First and foremost, every single day, no matter how busy things are or what is going on, my focus needs to be on my relationship with God. Without this, everything else starts to fall apart.
Secondly, there’s focus on my relationships with my family and home. I have a habit of spending too much time on other trivial things and getting away from what’s important, and slowly but surely my relationships with family will start to suffer, leaving us all feeling disconnected from each other. And when we feel disconnected from each other, tension and strife will ensue, rest assured.
And then of course, when there is tension at home everything else seems to fall apart as well. So much energy is spent on feeling anxious and being stuck in “fight or flight” mode that there’s not enough left over to take care of ourselves. Eating fast food becomes the norm because I’m too tired to plan meals or cook, and then soon after that my weight skyrockets and health plummets.
It’s all a vicious cycle that I’ve been round and round with my entire life. Right when all seems right with the world, I get too big for my britches and start to think that I can do all things on my own, without the help of anyone, including God. And it never fails, that is exactly the moment that things begin to fall apart. You would think I would learn, wouldn’t you?
I don’t know about anyone else but being held accountable always seems to help me keep things on track with most things, so I’m making a few goals and am going to start posting my daily progress at the end of my blog posts. I’m just starting out with a few because I know myself and won’t keep up with it if it’s more than that! The ones that I’ve chosen are:
1. Twenty minutes of devotion and prayer, first thing in the morning before anything else.
2. At least 30 minutes of physical movement each and every day, whether it be walking or playing the Wii! As long as I’m up off of my duff!
3. Fast food only ONCE a week for the next 30 days, no exceptions, period!
4. No complaining about work, whether it’s at work or at home.
5. Spend one hour each day doing something for someone else, whether it be crafting gifts, writing letters, etc…

Well, that’s it! I’ll be coming back here every day, starting tomorrow, to write down my progress. I won’t be too hard on myself if I don’t follow things to a tee, but am going to try my hardest!