hard decisions...

As most of you know, I had planned to start college this fall, something that was a big decision that I thought I was 100% sure about...
Then things got busy and chaotic and at times a little overwhelming, requiring me to make some important choices in my life to simplify, cut down on spending, and focus more on family and the importance of just being in the here and now instead of always racing to get to the next place in life without even knowing where I'm at in this moment.
I want to do things like grow a garden, give my home the care that it needs, including some long overdue repairs, and most importantly be more visible and present to my family and friends. To nurture those relationships as fully as I possibly can. To just breathe deep and be in the moment is what I long for most at this point in my life.
Life is so short and before we know it we are old and gray, if we are lucky enough to make it that far, and left wondering how we let our whole lives pass us by, not always knowing whether we made certain that our children and grandchildren, spouses and parents, sisters and brothers, and dear friends ever really knew exactly how much they meant to us and how much they were loved.
With that being said, and after much thought, I have made the choice to hold off on school for just a little while longer, not forever, just for now... It will be there in the future, but for now I'm at peace with the decision to wait.
For now I will fill my life with the simple things like lazy days in hammocks, lemonade, laundry on the line, fresh veggies from the garden, the giggles of grandbabies running through the yard, fresh bread baking in the stove, sweet hugs from ~C., and the love of those around me.
Count me in as one of the luckiest girls alive to have the makings of such a happy existance.

Hoping you all have a wonderful weekend!