Friday, July 25, 2008

hard decisions...

As most of you know, I had planned to start college this fall, something that was a big decision that I thought I was 100% sure about...
Then things got busy and chaotic and at times a little overwhelming, requiring me to make some important choices in my life to simplify, cut down on spending, and focus more on family and the importance of just being in the here and now instead of always racing to get to the next place in life without even knowing where I'm at in this moment.
I want to do things like grow a garden, give my home the care that it needs, including some long overdue repairs, and most importantly be more visible and present to my family and friends. To nurture those relationships as fully as I possibly can. To just breathe deep and be in the moment is what I long for most at this point in my life.
Life is so short and before we know it we are old and gray, if we are lucky enough to make it that far, and left wondering how we let our whole lives pass us by, not always knowing whether we made certain that our children and grandchildren, spouses and parents, sisters and brothers, and dear friends ever really knew exactly how much they meant to us and how much they were loved.
With that being said, and after much thought, I have made the choice to hold off on school for just a little while longer, not forever, just for now... It will be there in the future, but for now I'm at peace with the decision to wait.
For now I will fill my life with the simple things like lazy days in hammocks, lemonade, laundry on the line, fresh veggies from the garden, the giggles of grandbabies running through the yard, fresh bread baking in the stove, sweet hugs from ~C., and the love of those around me.
Count me in as one of the luckiest girls alive to have the makings of such a happy existance.

Hoping you all have a wonderful weekend!

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The Bayou Belles and Their Beau said...

I continuously talk about going back to school to get my Masters, but the same things you mentioned stop me. I really want to just enjoy life and secretly feel a little too old to go back with all those twenty-somethings. A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.

So, lay in that hammock sippin' your lemonade.

~T. said...

LOL yeah I was feeling a little bit of the age thing too when I realized I would be going back at the same time as my 23 year old co-worker...
So here's to just enjoying life and exhaling for a change :o)

The Bayou Belles and Their Beau said...

By the way, I'm adding you to my blogroll. I'm getting tired of looking you up through my bookmarks. So, get to writing, girl, so I can have some good stuff to read. No pressure though. LOL!

~T. said...

LOL thanks!
I'm sure by the end of the day there will be some kind of new happening to write about.

From A Creative Heart said...

T--Hey hon, I battled the school thing for a number of years. Till I really sat down and examined why I truly needed it at this time in my life compared to home and hearth...and I realized that my reasons just weren't for "now".

nothing wrong with anyone else going back and doing that, but for me I was trying to complete something that was another road from long ago and wasn't even on my map now...LOL

Hugs to you!!!

~T. said...

You make such a good point Debbie, thanks for being supportive :o)

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